White flag

I surrender. When my efforts do not get the expected returns, I give up. As much as I still wish to fight till the last minute, I think I have no energy to continue this battle. I spent half a day doing nothing today when it is a working day. I am not taking leave, neither am I on MC today. I just do not feel like working, do not feel like working hard like I used to. I do not know how much more I can do. I am not certain if my hard work will be paid off. I do not know if I am strong enough to go on. I think I need to rest before I find all the answers for myself.